THE OPENING
For the woman who can feel there is more life in her than she is living.
Who longs to feel at home in herself.
To rest.
To be still.
To hear her own voice again.
To trust what she knows.
Sometimes you know exactly what is missing.
More often, you just know something isn't quite right.
You are tired in a way that sleep doesn't touch.
You keep going.
You keep things together.
You do what needs to be done.
And somewhere underneath all of that, you can feel that you've lost contact with something.
With yourself.
Your own voice.
Your body.
What you actually want.
What you know.
Maybe you don't even have words for it yet.
You just know you want to feel like yourself again.
You don't have to know what you need.
You don't have to arrive with an answer.
You can begin here.
THE HOUSE
Sometimes it starts with a place to put everything down.
A question you've been carrying for a long time.
A practice that asks nothing of you but to stay.
A conversation where something you already knew finally finds its shape.
Words that finally land on the thing you've been trying to name.
A part of you that has been quiet for a long time can begin to come back into the room.
Time and space to be with yourself, without needing a reason.
Over the years, I kept finding myself drawn to all of these.
And eventually I realised I didn't want to choose between them.
I wanted to create a place that could hold them together.
A place where the body could belong alongside the mind.
Where science could sit beside intuition, neither one needing to win.
Where the practical could meet the mysterious and recognise they had been circling the same thing all along.
A place with room to rest, to feel, to understand, to recognise, and to let life move again.
That place is Lighthouse.
A house for coming home to yourself.
“Lighthouses don't go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.”
— Anne Lamott
I am not here to tell you who you are.
I am not here to decide where you need to go.
The light is here.
You decide what you need from it.
WHY THERE ARE ROOMS
We don't all arrive carrying the same thing.
You might arrive tired all the way through — the kind that never quite explains itself when someone asks how you're doing.
You may have spent so long reading every room you walk into that you've lost track of which needs in it were ever yours to carry.
A desire may have started moving in you again — quiet, half-formed, not yet pointed at anything in particular.
You may already know something is true and spend most of your energy finding reasons it isn't.
You may know exactly what you need, and still be waiting for someone else's nod before you take it.
Or you may reach a point where the only thing left that's true is:
I can't keep living like this.
And sometimes what you want most is somewhere for the different parts of you to meet.
This is why Lighthouse holds six rooms, not one.
THE SIX TERRITORIES
REST
I can stop.
BELONGING
I can be here.
EMERGENCE
Something in me can move.
RECOGNITION
I can see what is here.
SOVEREIGNTY
I can live from what I know.
TRANSFORMATION
My life begins to change from there.
These are not stages.
You don't have to move through them in order.
They are different places you might enter from.
THE ROOM OF RECOGNITION
At the heart of Lighthouse is the Room of Recognition.
It is for what you already know, before you have language for it.
A yes that arrives in your body before your mind agrees to it.
A no you've spent years talking yourself out of.
The way a room changes the second you walk into it, and you can't say why.
A knowing that arrives before the reasons do.
We don't rush to explain them.
We stay with what is here long enough for you to find out what is true for yourself.
The seeing has to become yours.
Enter the Room →
MEET ELLEN
I built Lighthouse because I know what it is like to lose contact with yourself — while still looking perfectly capable from the outside.
I searched for answers everywhere.
What I found, eventually, wasn't an answer.
It was a forgotten half of myself.
I trained as a journalist because I wanted to know what was actually true, not what was assumed to be true.
I didn't know yet that the same instinct would turn inward one day — that I would ask my own life the same unflinching questions, and refuse the same easy answers.
The questions I kept circling — about the body, about women, about what actually heals — were never as separate as they looked.
They were one devotion to truth, aimed in different directions, waiting to meet.
Stillness took me somewhere a notebook never could.
Softening. Allowing. Learning to stay inside a question instead of rushing to solve it.
What I found there was a kind of knowing I still can't fully explain.
But it became mine — not borrowed from a teacher or a text, but lived closely enough, for long enough, that I no longer had to believe it. I knew it.
And somewhere in all of that, the worlds stopped being separate.
Lighthouse is what happens when they are finally allowed to meet.
The part of me that wants to understand.
The part that knows some things have to be felt.
The woman who loves science and is equally at home with intuition and mystery.
THE WORK BEHIND THE WORK
None of this is the reason to stay. But it's worth knowing it's here.
Education & training
2 master's degrees, including Journalism
Neuroscience Coach
Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR)
Meditation
Yin Yoga Teacher Training
Trauma-Informed Yoga
Yoga Nidra and its therapeutic applications
Intuitive Development
Reiki Master
Experience
A decade teaching yoga and meditation
500+ hours of teaching
7 years creating and leading Relax & Restore retreats
Hundreds of women from more than 20 countries
WHAT MATTERS TO ME
There is something I care about very deeply in this work:
your life has to remain yours.
I am not here to tell you who you are, what you need, or what your life should look like.
I want to be as devoted to your freedom, strength, discernment and aliveness as I am to my own.
I would love for you to become more able to hear yourself — to trust your own experience, to stay close to what feels true, and to live from there.
And from there, to choose what is yours.
Your life belongs to you.
Meet Ellen →
FIND YOUR DOOR
You don't have to know where to begin.
Start with what catches you.
WHEN YOU NEED SPACE
The Deep Reset
A beginning.
A written guide and 25-minute guided Yoga Nidra for finding your way back to stillness.
Begin with The Deep Reset →
The Soft Return
A place to land.
A self-paced sanctuary of practices for rest, restoration, softness and returning to yourself.
Enter The Soft Return →
Let the Day Go
Put the day down.
A 20-minute sleep meditation for the end of the day.
Let The Day Go →
WHEN SOMETHING IN YOU IS ASKING TO BE MET
Emerge
Something in you is alive.
A desire, an idea, a longing, a creative impulse, new energy — a private 1:1 space to stay close to it, without rushing it into shape.
Enter Emerge →
Home
You want to feel at home in yourself.
A private 1:1 journey for when you've gotten so good at reading the room, and so practised at performing belonging, that you've lost touch with your own needs, your own pace, your own yes and no.
Explore HOME →
WHEN MORE OF YOU WANTS TO BE HERE
Repair · Reset · Remember
You want the whole of you to be here.
A self-paced journey through the different dimensions of yourself — with a map to hold its shape, and space to discover your own territory.
Enter Repair · Reset · Remember →
The Guided Transformation
Bring the whole landscape into the room.
A deep 1:1 journey for when something in your life can no longer remain as it is.
Begin The Guided Transformation →
The Deep Return
Where nothing essential is left outside the room.
For the woman who wants enough time for every part of herself to arrive — nothing rushed, nothing left waiting outside the door.
Begin The Deep Return →
THE LIBRARY
Some things are best lived.
Some things want words.
Some experiences arrive in layers — what happened, what it meant, what it opened underneath — before I can explain any of it.
Words help me bring those layers into relationship.
When the right words arrive, something blurry can take shape. Something that has been felt, but never quite named, becomes speakable.
That is why I believe language is part of the medicine.
The right words don't tell you what your experience means. They meet it closely enough for you to recognise something in it.
A part of you that has been pushed aside can come closer.
Something you have carried without language can finally be held.
Something that has been waiting can begin to move.
That is what I love about words. Not explanation for its own sake.
Precision. Recognition. Beauty. The moment something inside you says: yes. That's it.
The Library is a place for those moments.
Enter the Library →
FROM WOMEN
“I came to rest in deeper layers.”
— Eva, Amsterdam
“Ellen perfectly connected the two, showing that there is really no contradiction between science and the more mystical realities of life.”
— Leonie, Paris
“Ellen just senses when to be present or when it’s needed to check in.”
— Milou, Den Bosch
BEGIN HERE
You don't have to know which door is yours yet.
You can start with what catches you.
The room you keep thinking about.
The sentence that stayed with you.
The thing you find yourself coming back to.
Start there.
Lighthouse
A place of returning.
Begin here →